Recently, I somehow got myself involved in a conversation about parenthood with two, 23-year-old-guys who have no children.
At first, I wanted to immediately break and reverse myself right on outta there (because I was feeling OLD) until one sweetly asked, “is it tough being a parent?”
I answered honestly, “shhhhhhhhhhhhhyeah!”
Followed by, “if you’re not ready, take every possible step ever invented to avoid it. If you think you’re ready, think again.”
I proceeded to tell them that my husband and I were ready and having a kid almost knocked us on our butts. I know I’m not telling you guys anything new, but when I think about it, I can’t believe how hard this has been.
I’m BEGGING you not to see this as whining, and I could go on and on about how grateful I am for my sweet, beautiful, healthy boy, Lincoln, but you all know that I am (I hope). We all are grateful for our kids (right?), but this thang called parenthood is bananas!
I couldn’t explain to those guys the worry. I couldn’t describe the feeling of helplessness when Lincoln gets hurt or is sick. I could not put into words how much was ahead of me that I’d have to deal with and how terrifying it was. The decisions that need to be made every day, the insecurity, the waiting, the rushing, that feeling in the pit of your stomach – I couldn’t stress how much is unknown until you’re in it.
On the flip side, all the good stuff is by far as amazing and cancels out all that other stuff up there. I didn’t tell them that, though. I save that info for my first-time and scared preggo friends. They need to know how good it all really is.
Erin Hill is a first-time mom to Lincoln, who was born in January 2010. She's learning as she goes and is experiencing everything a new mom goes through while seeing the humor, irony, and enjoyment in her adventures.
Erin is a full-time technical writer and features freelance writer in her "spare time." She lives in Plum with Lincoln, her husband, Adam, their dog, Roxie, and five (yes, five) cats, Nirvana, Gary Roberts, Elvis, Talbot and Forrest.