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Erin and her son Lincoln

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Are you a worrier? Questions to kill (some) of them.

Written by Erin Hill. Posted in Diaper Duty

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My top three worries right now are:

  • My kids will be taken.
  • A vehicle will drive through a building my kids/myself/my husband are in.
  • Reagan (my one-year-old) will choke on the huge amount of food she constantly shoves in her mouth.

My mother is a worrier. She worries about everything. EVERYTHING. Growing up with a worrier was, well, worrisome. When I was little, I worried I would worry like her, I was confused about what to worry about, and I worried that my mother would kill herself worrying. (I still worry about that last one.)

I saw the following quote one time:

                Worrying about tomorrow robs today of its joy.

Or something like that.

Every time I worry, I repeat this or tell myself that I’m out of this moment, reel it back in, and to move on. No one wants to be around a vocal worrier, and, honestly, no one wants to be a worrier. I’m confident of that.

In order to combat worry and not drive myself (and my loved ones) crazy, I evaluate my worries. Oh yes, I do. I HAVE to. When a worry pops up, I ask myself some questions:

1. Is my worry valid/true/realistic?

At this moment, in this country/state/city, with all we’ve done up to this point, is this thing I’m worried about a possibility? If yes, move on to 2. If no, let it go. (Weeeeeeeeeeeee!)

2. Why am I worried about this?

Was this on the news? Often? Did this happen to someone I know? More than once?

The news (and social media) give me so many new things to worry about. Thanks so much! The news often introduces something I never even knew I could worry about (for example, the car into a building thing). I worry for about two seconds about most of that stuff then think “Come on! A small private plane isn’t going to crash in to my house! Silly news!” Let it go!

Something happening to someone I know brings it closer to home, but I’m given the gift of an “expert” to discuss prevention and preparation. Move on to number 3.

3. Can I control the situation to avoid what I’m worried about?

My FAVORITE! If you cannot control it, don’t worry. If you can control it, do something about it, then don’t worry. This is usually the first question I ask myself. Can I do something about what I’m worried about? If no, move on to number 4. If yes, fix it NOW. Duh! Then, don’t worry.

4. What is the effect of what I’m worried about? How will I deal with that?

SPOILER ALERT: The actual effect won’t be nearly as horrible as the effect you think up to answer this question. In any event, it’s best to be prepared for what may come. For example, my kids will get sick, and it may be severe. I can’t do anything about it aside from washing their hands and some other prevention things, but I can’t stop all sickness. I like to think I’m prepared for it when it happens. I have a great pediatrician, medications, natural remedies, and live in a place with hospitals that offer amazing medical care (God forbid!). That’s what I’ve done. I’m OK with that. I don’t worry (constantly) about this situation. Moving on…

5. Can I talk to someone about this?

I hope you have some awesome friends like I do. I have people I can talk about anything with – and I do. Nine times out of 10 I feel so incredibly better about life afterwards. Now, those people may tell you you’re silly. Don’t get angry about that. They’re your friend, yo!

Dealing with a worry by answering these questions about it has really taken down my stress. Some things I’ll always worry about, I can’t help it. People get sick, people die, people get hurt, people lose jobs, etc. Also, some of my worries will be silly to others. I don’t care. They’re MINE! I’m not embarrassed to tell you I’ve worried about a zombie apocalypse more than once (Question 1 helps kick that one to the curb). By being prepared as much as I can for those things that are likely to happen, I feel better, my worry dulls, and I don’t feel the need to talk about much of my worries to anyone.

Do you worry a lot? Is it a problem for you? How do you get past your worries? How do you deal with people who tell you your worries are silly (in my opinion, a huge insult)?

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Welcome a New One to the Mommy Club

Written by Erin Hill. Posted in Diaper Duty

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My friend is having a baby right now – literally. RIGHT NOW!

I can hardly stand it.

I can’t wait for her to have this experience. I can’t wait for her to feel this love.

This morning, I wished her well and told her that I was so excited she gets this gift. A child! A true, true amazing gift.

Us parents, we are so very lucky. We are given something so precious, so incredible that I often wonder how I’m worthy enough to be a mommy. How’d I get this gig? For me, my life the last five years has been nothing short of incredible. So much so that I can’t remember much about the 29 years before it now.

For me, when I was given my babies, I was made. I was me. All of a sudden any doubts I ever had about anything were dead. New doubts come, of course, but I have the confidence that they’re nothing. My kids are everything. Anything else is just there to take my energy and focus from them and that ain’t happening.

I was never one to be a “baby person.” I had no young relatives and most of my friends had their babies with or after me. Before, I knew I wanted kids, but didn’t think about it constantly. I’m still surprised how consumed I am with this motherhood thing.

So, to my friend who’s having her first born NOW:

Welcome to the club! Welcome to this crazy, amazing, insane, wonderful club. I can’t even tell you what you’re in for…

What surprised you about becoming a parent? Was it all you expected? (if you say yes, you’re lying!) What do you feel when a close friend or family member is having their first? (I'm all giddy with excitement!)

 

 

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Obsessions: Do you embrace them or hurry them along?

Written by Erin Hill. Posted in Diaper Duty

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Well it’s happened. I thought we’d skip this. I thought we’d dodged the bullet.

My friends, you see…

the Frozen obsession has hit this house.

I blame my friends (for not warning me)! I blame the daycare (for playing the soundtrack constantly)! I blame myself (for buying the movie he at first wasn’t interested in)! I blame the security in my thought that he’s a boy so he won’t care! WRONG!

It’s all we watch. All…..we….WATCH!

I know all the songs now. I’m not left behind anymore. I’m up on “the thing” with all of you…unless there’s a new thing now.

If there is, don’t tell my son.

Actually, I don’t mind the movie. There have been other obsessions (Power Rangers) that I really could have done without. It’s the songs…

“Do you wanna build a snowmaaaaaan?” runs through my head in a continuous loop when I’m driving to work, when I’m at work, in meetings, talking with my boss and coworkers, driving home, making dinner, etc.

“Do you wanna build a snowmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan?”

Please, help me.

What’s the latest obsession at your house? Is it bothering you or do you embrace it?

Of course, Lincoln can go on as long as he likes with Frozen. My problem? Well, I’ll just have to….

LET IT GOOOOOO. LET IT GOOOOOO.

 

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Good Mother/Bad Wife

Written by Erin Hill. Posted in Diaper Duty

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I recently saw an article/blog post that referred to the thought that being a good mother might make you a bad wife. At least that’s what I took from the title…I did not read the article.

Why? Well, first, I’ve had the idea to write about this for a while so I didn’t want my thoughts and opinions influenced by the author. Second, I didn’t want to agree with her.

I do, though.

I’m an attentive, caring, supportive, loving, fun mother. I’m the opposite and more when I look at myself as a wife.

I’ve struggled for years with the fact that I’m quick tempered, distant, and, honestly, extremely disrespectful to my husband. I am. I know it. I’ve failed him. I’ve become the wife I didn’t want to be.

I’m a terrible wife, and I don’t know how to turn it around.

I love my husband. I mean, I LOOOOOVE him. But, I always put him on the back burner. I never make time for him while on the flip side I constantly make time for my kids and always bend over backwards to put them first.

When I ask myself “why can’t you do that for Adam?” My answer is usually “COME ON! You know I waaaant to, but I’m so tired/lazy/busy/whatever. I’ll do it tomorrow. I promise.”

And, I don’t.

My poor husband.

I can’t put it all on myself.  Sometimes my husband retreats like a third wheel when the kids and I are together. Sometimes he doesn’t put forth the effort. Sometimes I have all the same complaints as most women do about their husbands and get pretty pissed off at him. It’s not all me, but I do need some tweaking.

We were together 10 years before we started having babies. Ten amazing, love-filled years and then it seemed like I could only devote myself to one person at a time and my attention went directly to my first born then stretched to my second, and I feel spent.

Is there a way to be both a good mother AND a good wife? Perhaps not all the time, but most of the time?

I don’t think we’re “in trouble” or anything…just in a sad situation right now.

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I've Done More Than I Thought: A Mother's Small Victory Against Guilt

Written by Erin Hill. Posted in Diaper Duty

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I often give myself a hard time because I think I don’t do enough with my kids. I worry I miss opportunities to fill their childhoods with memories and fun…or something like that.

You know what I’m talking about. You probably do it, too. The guilt you're not giving your kids a proper childhood...ugh.

While thinking about what I wanted to accomplish in 2015, I vowed that I would do more with the kids because (this is what I told myself) we never do anything.

Fast forward to a few hours later when I’m making a photo book for Lincoln’s fifth birthday: I make a book for him every year highlighting the year before and people sign it at his party like a guest book/yearbook kind of thing.

Anyway, I had so many pictures of small trips out of town, our big vacation to Texas, visits with friends, activities around town, baking and cooking adventures at home, game playing, trips to the park, general goofiness, and many more things we’ve done.

I’m so happy to see that we HAVE been doing things – big and small. We’ve been putting the quality in quality time and here I am worried I didn’t give that to them. I DID! YAY ME (and my husband)! GO US!

So, in 2015, when it comes to this topic, I’d like to continue what we’ve been doing.  We’ve got it down so I’m going to worry less about it. Thank God.

Do you have a resolution/goal for your family this year?

I hope you all have wonderful 2015’s with nothing but love, luck, peace…and LESS GUILT!

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